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I wish i were not here

Posted by joise30 on 24-Oct-2009 (202 reads)

Dont you ever feel you just want someone
to take you way from all the problems in
you life?

Well i feel like that everyday i just
dont see why i was born... what was the
point no one cares about me anyway.... i only have
my mother and were comeing apart as it is.

And the rest of my family what can they do be sides
worry about the little things when im sitting on my bed
everyday crying. i have see enough of everything and
i juat so fed up with it all. i even thought about
what it would be like to leave earth for good.
dad wont care he never cared no matter how much i
cry, cut or blame myslef no mattter how much i
want him to love me,. i just want so much to run away
all this time i have been in the middle of life
and death with my slef.
i dont even know who i am anymore.
my heart is broken or whats lefted of it anyway
i sick of everyone and everything.
i sick of him and her acting like nothing is wrong
and im sick of comeing home and crying my eyes out until
i cant talk or breath, i sick i looking at my father
and trying to make him happy after everything hes done
to me why cant i just forget. im done with everyone
and everything. the littlest things i would trow a fit
at. i don't want to be here anymore who would care answer
that i want reasons, i know not everyone going to read this
and if you do read this tell me why u care or dont
care. if im gone mom wont notice, dad will smile and laugh,
brother will sell whats lefetd of my things, the only
person who loves me is god and right now i need that love
or i might take my own...

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phoenixalia	Posted: 2009/10/25 2:27 Updated: 2009/10/25 2:27
Enchanters Joined: 2008/2/5 From: Gold: 3929	Re: I wish i were not here Awww...Joise, don't be sad. We do care. Seeing your post, I'm in tears. Please don't be sad. Life can be pretty hard sometimes, but after dark times come good times. hugs joise

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SilverMist	Posted: 2009/10/25 7:53 Updated: 2009/10/25 7:53
Enchanters Joined: 2008/2/1 From: Gold: 2396	Re: I wish i were not here Life can be difficult sometimes, but sometime here is also some silver lining.

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Mayflower	Posted: 2009/10/25 12:25 Updated: 2009/10/25 12:28
Amaranthian Joined: 2008/3/30 From: Gold: 88	Re: I wish i were not here Don't ever wish for that. No one should. You're not as alone as you think. We care. And, even though I know it's hard to see it sometimes, I'm sure there are people even closer to you that also care. I'm sorry to hear about the troubles with your family. Unfortunately families do sometimes fall apart and there's nothing anyone can do about that. But that does not mean that you are all alone and no one cares. It also doesn't mean it's your fault. I was in this situation too. My father also didn't care about me and my mother died a long time ago, when I was still a small kid. So I do know how you feel. The only advice I can offer is this: don't keep trying to make them care. Take your life into your own hands. Find something you like to do, maybe a new hobby, like books, music, sports or something and spend more time doing that. You will feel happier because you'll be doing what you like and you will also perhaps meet some new friends. People who have the same interests usually get on very well and become friends. Also, don't be afraid to talk to others. Some might be unkind, but there are also people who are good and prepared to help you. So don't give up!

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dfg	Posted: 2009/10/25 14:11 Updated: 2009/10/26 10:06
Amaranthian Joined: 2009/7/31 From: Gold: 815	Re: I wish i were not here how u feel when i say i know this about u? yea right i know!when i read your poems i find u r very sad and i find u want a love!u want a person to love and he loves u too!and listen to ur problems!and i knew u crying everyday!cause im like u my mother hate me...my father is mean and my sis and bro are 2 bad!yea cry!it only ways u can feel better!

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elonah	Posted: 2009/10/28 22:44 Updated: 2009/10/28 22:44
Witches and Warlocks Joined: 2008/5/28 From: Gold: 1103	Re: I wish i were not here i'm trying to overcome such pain by now and it's 75% in progress, everything would be fine i really wishes too that i'm not here, but.. i asked my self who can i be if i'm not me? Where would i be if not here? Too afraid to the judgment of the outside world i didn't answer my self

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pinkjaguar12	Posted: 2009/11/7 9:18 Updated: 2009/11/7 9:19
Amaranthian Joined: 2009/6/16 From: Gold: 149	Re: I wish i were not here Imagine a world without you in it. Would everyone really feel better? No one would. They would feel miserable. I don't care how you think your mom treats you, she is still your mom. A mother's love, that maternal bond, is stronger than anything else in the world.